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Compassion Trail & A Little Bit of Summer Salad

7/30/2019

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I've been watching and listening to the hoard of commentators in my head lately and they aren't always the nicest of folks. I've been going through a transition of jobs and wanting to ask for somethings that are challenging for me. When I am in this space my commentators are in full force discussing the many stories they have made up about me and others along with what I've done wrong, why I'm not good enough and really instilling the fear in me. It gets me a little paralyzed.

It makes me second guess my choices what I'm supposed to do or want to do along with questioning it all. I know this comes from childhood but what doesn't?! I've talked to other people that grew up in homes that were pretty normal and that self-talk isn't as loud and they are able to move through it a little easier.

I've decided in these moments to be gentle with myself and not push myself to ask questions that I feel I can't do yet. The time will come. I will push through and find my voice because I always do.

The pain comes mostly when I push myself when I'm not ready. Or when I have been playing these stories over and over but intend to take action even though I'm in a frightened state. It is me creating my own pain not anybody from the past.

It is heartbreaking to be living in this block of not being able to ask for what I want at times. It is heavy when I feel not worthy or that I'll be rejected. I get stuck in playing the tapes over and over of what I'd like to say along with how I think they see me which is usually not in the greatest light. I feel like a snail hiding out in my shell just bracing for someone to step on me instead of seeing the possibility that someone will avoid stepping on me or even pick me up and put me in a safe place.

I'm ready to release this. The hilarity of it all is I thought all my transformation from my yoga teacher training "fixed me." (That makes me chuckle a little). It just comes back to the notion that there is always some new way to grow.

What if in these moments we are stuck we just let ourselves be? Tell ourselves, "I know you want to speak up and you will but most of all be kind to yourself. Your voice will be heard and you will get your needs met." Then our bodies and minds would relax. It would feel like a relief because we wouldn't be pushing ourselves to do something that we are feeling really resistant to and beating ourselves up for not doing it.

When the committee of overly loud commentators is getting you down. Rest and honor yourself right where you are. What a concept? We don't have to beat ourselves up for what we aren't doing, should be doing or want to be doing. We can be kind and gentle to ourselves.

Haven't you always triumphed in things you want or goals you have? This doesn't mean that your face is on every magazine or that there is a ton of people talking about what you have done. This is is those everyday triumphants. You got your to do list done, you asked for what you needed from your significant other, you asked for help from a friend, you did a different behavior and the list goes on. You are victorious in your life.

Let that sink in. You are victorious in your life everyday. Too often we look at what is wrong, where we need to do something different and how we aren't getting what we want. That is where those commentators take you down and make you want to hide in your house of failure.

They actually aren't the sayers of truth. They are our deceivers and create chaos in our minds. Let yourself rest. Rest sometimes feels like a dirty word because we feel like we aren't moving or doing enough. But rest can be just what our mind needs to see our path unfold or for us to tune into what the divine path is ahead.

Be quiet and just love yourself. These road blocks are put there to help us push through to grow. Snails leave a trail behind them, not to look back and over analyze how long it took them to do something or beat themselves up for going the wrong way. The trail is there as a reminder of the beautiful journey that they courageously took.

Tap into your true essence and know that your words will be spoken in the right time and the right place. And let the words of "you are a victorious," ring through your body like the vibration from a gong. Soak it in and kick those commentators out. You deserve to see yourself in your true light. A beautiful magnificent being that has the power for so much more than you thought was possible. The expanding will come and you will confidently ask for your needs and desires.

A Little Bit of Summer Salad

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 Ingredients:
6 cups of mixed greens
1 corn on the cob, kernels cut off
1 medium sized delicata squash, seeds cleaned out, cut into small chunks
1/2 a red onion
2 peaches or nectarines, cut in chunks
1 avocado, cut into chunks
1/2 cup of queso fresco, crumbled
1/4 of pumpkin seeds

Salad dressing:
3 tablespoons olive oil, a little more to saute corn, delicata and onion
1-11/2 tablespoon of fresh lemon juice, about a whole juicy lemon
1-2 teaspoons maple syrup, to your preference of sweetness
1 tablespoon tahini

Directions:
1. Chop the delicata squash, cut the corn off the cob and chop the red onion. Add 1 tablespoon of olive oil to a sauce pan on medium heat. Add the delicata squash and corn. Cook for 5-10 minutes until the squash is starting to brown. Add onions and saute for 5 minutes, till onions are softened but still have color. Place in a bowl to cool off.

2. Take a mason jar and add all the salad dressing ingredients. Shake it up to blend all the ingredients together. You can also whisk it together in a bowl.

3. Chop the peaches and avocado. Add the greens to a large bowl. Adding the peaches, avocado, cheese and pumpkin seeds. Once the squash, corn, onion mixture is cool add to the bowl and mix.

4. Add salad dressing individually or to the whole salad. (If you are not eating the whole thing I would suggest adding the dressing to the individual bowls of salad).

5. Enjoy!

Cooking is like a sanctuary for me. It is where my mind stops and I'm focused on making my recipe. Use this time to settle your mind. Focus on this task at hand and let everything go because the moment is where it is at. Let this salad brighten your spirit and know everything will come together like the pieces of this salad. Create a little sanctuary for yourself.

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February 27th, 2018

2/27/2018

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Moving & Roasted Carrots with Tahini Dill Sauce

My new life is writing with a little baby boy besides me. I love it but it wasn't always magical. My life was in a rapidly changing state and I've been out of touch because of circumstances that arose shortly after his birth.

I’ve written in previous posts about the fires, but didn't know at the time that it would affect us in a round-about way.


Just a few days after my son was born we received a call from the new owner of our complex saying that he would be remodeling and nearly doubling the rent. This wouldn't have been so devastating had the rental market been in good standing, but with the ravaging of so many homes due to the fires and the already low availability of rentals, it created a volatile market. Hence the excuse for a new owner to have us leave and then charge an extravagant amount of rent!

The news was more daunting because we have two small dogs, and Sonoma County isn't very animal friendly. I quickly grew compassion for people who must give up their animals because they need a place to live. I absolutely love my dogs but when you are looking for a place, your options for affordable rentals are drastically cut. I'd never experienced a housing market like this. Things moved at the speed of light, the prices were out of control, references and compassion were hard to find and even a junky place was advertised as a palace!

It felt like a 100 meter dash but I had a newborn, was learning to nurse, adjusting to my hormones, my new way of life and schedule, AND attempting to enjoy my maternity leave and my sweet boy.  Even being as optimistic as possible I was without much hope for almost two months. I spent many days in my rocking chair nursing and emailing landlords. I would drag my newborn to see place after place, put on a happy face and try to win them over. On too many occasions I tried to force myself to like a place, smile through the tears and muster up what courage I had left. It was a journey for the strong willed!

We would apply the day after we saw something and it would already be gone. I can remember holding back tears when we hoped to get one place, but heard they gave it to someone else. One posting said “one dog” and I asked him to consider us with two extra references, a bigger deposit and having them in doggie daycare each day. His response was void of any emotion with "Again I said one dog!" I lost faith in humanity for a while, and wondered if all of Sonoma County lost touch with humankind.

I did see the strength of my community though. People encouraged me every day, feeling my anger with me, and many searched to find places for us. I also felt my own vigor because I started advocating not only for myself and my family, but the community at large. I spoke to a L.A. Times reporter and was on the local news. I learned that I wasn't the only one being affected by greed and the housing shortage, and my neighbors were going through the same thing all over the county.



The weeks were going by slow and fast at the same time. Our deadline to move out was coming up, but our new home wasn't manifesting. We were invited to take over somebody’s lease but it didn’t feel right. My heart hung low because it was one-bedroom with $150 extra a month for pet rent, and a new fee every time we turned around! We were over our sixty day notice, but I had a feeling if I pushed forward on one more place, that it would be ours. I got all my ammo in a row: solid references, filling out our applications before we even saw it, showing my excitement to the property manager and anticipating the landlord would pick us. I was tired and almost time for me to go back to work.

Then it happened; it was ours. The place was ours!!! Aw, what a relief; now we just had to move and begin our new life.


I always like to reflect on what an experience has taught me. This one took me a long time to find the diamond!  My emotions had been running high and included many tears. But there ARE always gifts that come out of tough situations.

One thing that I learned is that I almost always must stay in the muck until I can move onto solid ground. I had some people try to cheer me up or tell me “everything would work out” but sometimes that made me mad. I had a mentor who would let me release my grievances and get angry with me. This helped me to feel heard, and then eventually move on from the feelings of being hopeless. I know sometimes it can be uncomfortable to be in feelings of anger, resentment and rage. Also, it can be uncomfortable for other people to see us in it, but we can't move through it if we don't feel it and get our feelings validated. Who knew that if you let a friend roll around in the muck with you, that you might help them move through their sorrow faster?

I used my voice and it felt liberating. I couldn't see the ripples of what it did but it felt good to speak out and not just be complacent. There is always an impact even if it isn't always seen by us. As a child, my voice wasn't always heard or what I said was received with rage and anger. It made me afraid to stand up for myself for a long time. I now have years of working on letting my voice be heard. Even if it isn't received well, it’s easier to say what I feel. At times I still hold back, but anger helped to honor those feelings and send them out into the universe.

Change can be hard. It can be hard not only for you but people that love you. A lot of times we thrive on routine and when it gets ripped away, it can feel like we are on a teeter totter. It’s challenging to find our balance, and other’s may be frightened when we are hanging in the air.


Change is an opportunity to be gentle with ourselves, and to honor our process. To encourage ourselves and lean on other people when we need it, and show that vulnerability like it is something to be proud of!
My advice is to give yourself the love you so freely give to others.










Roasted Carrots with Tahini Dill Sauce

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This recipe is simple and delicious. Sometimes we feel roasted by life but just like the carrots in this recipe it can bring out the sweetness. The tahini, lemon, dill sauce gives it a tang and earthy flavor. With just the right amount of lemon it will give us a little zing but won't leave our mouth puckering. In life we can use that zing to motivate us without knocking us down. The avocado provides a creamy flavor and helps remind us that there is always a little cream to remind us life is beautiful. The pistachios give a little crunch that keeps us moving.

This recipe makes a great side for any spring festivity or dinner.

Ingredients:
2 bunches of carrots
1/4 cup of tahini
juice of 2 lemons
1-2 teaspoons of honey
1 tablespoon of freshly minced dill
1/4 cup of roughly chopped pistachios
1 avocado; cut in chuncks
1 tablespoon of olive oil
salt and pepper to taste

Instructions:
1. Preheat oven to 350º. Wash and cut off tops of carrots. Let dry. Place carrots on a baking sheet and drizzle with olive oil. Roll them in the olive oil so they are covered with a thin coating. Sprinkle with salt and pepper. Cook for 20-30 minutes, turn once or twice to brown on most sides. Remove once nicely browned.

2. While the carrots are cooking prepare the tahini sauce. Mix tahini and lemon juice. Add one teaspoon of honey and add more if still to bitter. Add dill and mix well.

3. Chop pistachios and cube the avocado. Once carrots are done put on a serving plate. Drizzle with tahini sauce, sprinkle pistachios on top and put avocado as final touch. Put a little dash of salt and pepper.

Side dish is done. Serve.


Take a deep breath. If change is upon you in your life know that it too shall pass. Maybe the gems haven't been revealed yet but they will come. Feel all the feelings, express them, surrender to them and know you will find your balance again. Being held to the fire of life can help bring out the sweetness you've been desiring. Until next time, cheers to you my friends!






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    Kalen has an extensive background in nutrition which comes to mind when she is creating recipes. She was first exposed to cooking by her father and this led to many years of experimenting in the kitchen. Kalen has transcended many hardships in her life and has used them to gain wisdom. Kalen hopes Dash and Drizzle is a place where your soul is nourished and your belly fed.

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